when i was abt to click on "Publish Post", "it" happened again...
totally no mood to post tt entry now.
it 100% does not match with my current mood.
i was typing out my entry for today happily...
juz when i was abt to publish the post, there was this commotion.
it is common. in fact, frequently. ever since 7 years ago.
no one will understand this post.
i thought this time round, it would be like always.
a few mins and it would end. no other additional stuff.
i stopped whatever i was doing.
went out of my parents' room.
things are getting worse.
judging from the situations tt happened previously.
i knew tt this is going to happen sooner or later.
no doubt. it happened.
words,
sentences,
body language,
actions,
disappointment,
accumulated saddness.
the fierce eyes,
anger,
no sense of guiltiness or any signs of repentment.
tears swelled up in my eyes.
there is nothing i can do.
i've tried everything. from the hard way. the soft way.
all these years.
it's not going to change.
nobody will understand.
how i wish somebody would.
how i wish i would have the courage to cough this out to someone.
i know i'm not brave enough.
if not i would not have been suffering alone all these years.
no one understands.
no time for me to be emo. coz it will be another sleepless night. to concentrate on my projects.
i have to move on.
sorry for this emo post. i juz have to vent it out.
even typing it, is difficult.
