Tuesday, July 31, 2007 16:18 Y
Post title : Damned my straightforwardness Yea... talked to Adler juz now. He sent me a photo of him asking me if that photo can make it as a model. I told him the truth, which is that the photo cannot make it. I don't really know how to answer him at first and i don't really know what defines a model, like the looks and everything.
Haiz. I felt that the photo don't really bring out his looks, so i told him what i felt. Sigh. I don't think he's doing fine now. He seemed to be breaking out in tears. So, i left him alone as requested.
Oh my. What have i done? Shouldn't have told him what i felt as i don't know anything abt the modeling industry. SIGH.
Hope he will call me back later.
To Adler: cry for all you want, you will feel better. I'll be there for you if you need me. =)Labels: Ring Ring
Monday, July 30, 2007 16:53 Y
Post title : Added Tagboard! Yes! I learnt how to add a tagboard in my blog (yesterday while slacking... oh my)! hehex... learnt one more thing!
Really hope to change my blog skin! hmm. Who can teach me?! No time to learn so much within a limited too! Argh! NO TIME NO TIME!
Supposed to lunch with edwin today too. But he can't manage to make it in the end. Luckily, there's other mantiz ppl ard. Eh, edwin! I sort of planned this for u since u said tt u missed the mantiz ppl u know. =/
And plz have lunch with me tomor! Haven't seen you for ages! =/
All right. Have to study for my geog test now. Else i'm really gonna fail.
And, maybe will send an invitation to jing wen later so tt she can have the permission to view my blog. hehex. Jing Wen, privilege for you only okay! hahaz!Labels: Not so a com idiot anymore, What's happening today?
16:29 Y
Post title : my 2 stupid dreams Okie. As promised, blogging abt the dreams in another blog entry. Talked to Kian yan. So, he said the dream, ahem, i mean nightmare, abt edwin was purely due to my stress. Yes, i totally agree!!! hahaz. Finally, somebody is telling me that the dream was due to stress! hahaz. Ppl around me have been telling me that i had that dream coz i wished to be edwin's gf. -.-'''
Next, the second dream. Abt Adler. Eh, he said i had tt dream coz i like adler. Oh my god. hahaz. But i still think that part of it is due to stress. In addition, the phone calls with adler like everyday must have been the cause tt he appeared in my dream. hahaz! Then kian yan rebutted, “Then, why are u still thinking abt this dream till now?” Hello, I really like the feeling in the dream, the warmth, the security. I think I would be still thinking abt the dream even if the guy isn’t adler. Right?
Okay, whatever. This is the result of the dream interpretation by kian yan 3 days ago. hahaz. okie. bye!Labels: Twice upon a time?
02:17 Y
Post title : Procrastinating and i'm gonna Fail my Geog Test already!!! =/ Yes, ppl. I haven't sleep yet!!! And i haven't even touch my geog notes yet!
Stupid Yu Tian. Seriously can go jump off the building and end your dumb life! Wasting your time again!
zzz
how how?! my procrastinating habit is back! who can help me kick this habit? damn shit. guess only my "so-filled-up" planner will enable me to realise that time is really ticking away, real FAST! Shit, didn't even glance at my planner for like how many days! Haven't checked out my exam timetable too! I'm damn slack nowadays.
What am i going to do? how to salvage the situation now? I guess the only way is to stop procrastinating right now and start studying!
I'm so sleepy... =( And i don't know why i'm like so addicted to my blog nowadays. Feel like blogging everyday. How Strange.
Counting down to my holidays! Really missed my social life. My friends. My exciting life. My no-stress life. My "don't need to sleep" night life. My freedom.Labels: Bad habits
Sunday, July 29, 2007 23:35 Y
Post title : Abt my phone conversations again. Adler and Pris. Talked to Adler juz now again. hope he's reli feeling fine over the model thingie. the wad daniel dunno wad rejected adler so many times abt helping him becoming a model. wth.msged him again after we hung up coz i think he sounded strange over the phone. Asked him if he's feeling all right, emotionally. he said he's all right. But i said, "serious? but i'm a bit worried..." then, he asked i'm worried over what thing. i replied the model thingie. he said, "yup! haha". I don't reli believe him you know. so i msged him, "serious?" then he say, "siao u wana call n console me?"I was like thinking, "oh no! should i really call him right now? he sounded like he was joking. but what if he reli is not feeling all right and is crying right now?" So, i msged him, "oh my, meaning u not feeling okay now? i can call u if u want to"then, like after 5 to 10mins, he didn't reply. i felt like calling him right away coz like sth is wrong rite, since there's no response. but somehow, i told myself to wait for his reply. then, he called me! he's crying! omg~!!!! i was like damn silent when he called and i don't to like even dare talk coz he was like crying so badly... then, after abt 2 or 3 mins, he said tt he was juz joking. zzzhmm... talked to him for a while and tried to cheer him up. Don't know how to console him though. yea.. then talked a bit. asked him if he's really all right, he replied tt he's become so used to the rejections that he don't feel the sadness already. but, i don't believe him, coz the sadness sure must be there, present in his heart right? Who would tell a person so openly and directly tt u are actually feeling damn bad inside your heart? then he commented tt i'm like damn boring over the phone nowadays. like very quiet. hello adler poh, what else u want me to talk abt when i'm like thinking of how to console u?!hahaz. okie. then hang up the phone after his numerous yawnings. msged him to wish he'll have sweet dreams tonight. hope he will sleep well and not cry himself to sleep.Okie. hahaz. talking to pris now. Tricked her over the GCC thingie, for helping me sign up first without re-confirming with me again. hahaz. yeapx. OH my. i haven't start studying for my geog test yet. i'm so gonna fail. =/Procrastinating habit is back again! plz get a grip on urself and study hard Yu Tian!!!!! still wondering if adler did really cry. hmm...Labels: Ring Ring
17:45 Y
Post title : Blogged at http://dmsse1.blogspot.com/ Updated blog at http://dmsse1.blogspot.com/ below is what i've updated.Hi everyone! Yu Tian is here to blog! Sorry... Today's my first time blogging here and it's gonna be an emo one... I juz happened to come across Arron's blog (Fahrenheit's member, yan ya lun), www.wretch.cc/blog/arronbubest, yesterday and it brought back memories and everything and this blog here serves a reminder to all to cherish the ones around u. His recent blog entries are abt the sudden death of his 2 good friends cum basketball playmates. Felt like blogging it after reading his blog entry where he wrote, "不要吝啬给身边的人爱，因为爱一个人很幸福，也很快乐。" Meaning, give and show all your love to the ones around you, b'coz being able to love one, is a kind of happiness. While this sentence was being processed in my mind, i felt damn sad and kind of angry with myself coz i realised that i haven't been showing and expressing my love to the ones around me, like my family and friends. Not as in i did not show any love to them, but is showing that kind of love that i won't regret it even if they pass away. You know what i mean, like you have been cherishing them when they are still alive. There's also another sentence in arron's blog that really made a deep impression in my mind. "情 有友情 爱情 亲情 但 不管是 哪一种情 都和爱有关系" This really makes a lot of sense and i wonder if any of you have really taken note abt this? And all these below is what i longed to say: I miss the times when we would walk to the reservoir to shout our worries, sadness and stress away. I miss the times when F4 used to come out with tricks to trick everyone in the class. I miss the times when everyone in the class was being tricked by F4. I miss the times when everyone is being irritated by F4's tricks. I miss the times when the teachers used to scold us as a class. I miss the times when we lied to the teacher as a class abt the number of periods for the subject we have. I miss the times when we used to laugh at teachers who make a joke out of themselves. (one who fell down the chair and one who said abt ppl burning the grass when there's actually a fire) I miss the times when we would lined up together happily during fire drills as it means no lessons. I miss the times when we used to eat together during recess. I miss the times when we used to smuggle food into the class. I miss the times when we used to joke abt monkeys and gorillas. (Fahseha, QQ and Meng) I miss the times when linked Fahseha with bribery after reading the runaways. (bribing us with sweets) I miss the times when we used to pair up ppl and spread rumours. I miss the times when ppl laugh at F4's stupid jokes. I miss the times when we used to joke abt Yee Chiat's name. I miss the times when Ros spit out the water tt she was drinking after hearing a joke. I miss the times when John would always eat sweets "so secretly" during lessons. And him always bending down, touching his tie during presentations.I miss the times when QQ always kanna sabotaged by us. Oh, and the times when qq was being chased by the crows after school for his food.I miss the times when Edwin display his evil plots during games. Not to forget how we gossip abt his flirting with gals. =X I miss the times when we always trick Rui Min with stupid stuff. I miss the times when wileen would say "lao niang". I miss the miss when we hit meng and getting ourselves hurt in the end. =/I miss the times when babboon used to sing his "bu yao wen wo cong na li lai". I miss the times when we were laughing like hell when Jun Jia was being trapped outside the MRT. I miss the times when Kai Ting's face would go blank after hearing a lame joke. I miss the times when Qiu Ping got irritated by the rumours tt we created for her. I miss the times when we would always play basketball after school. I miss the stupid things that we would do in the public as a group. I miss the times when we laugh till our stomach hurt like hell. I miss the times when we stopped Mr Phoa's car while he was driving out of the school. I miss the times when i laugh at our stupid actions till my urine really going to come out. I miss the days tt i've spent with all of you, so much. I want you to know i cherish all of you, my beloved friends. Thank you all for giving me this wonderful memories that i won't forget for all my life. Jeez... i wrote so much... hahaz! eh... don't worry yea! i'm totally fine.. hahaz.. juz miss the times that all of us have spent tgt... and tt we now rarely have time for one another. eh... write till like tt, i dunno how to end this blog entry... hahaz... all right then! cya guys at the next gathering! And Happy belated 18th birthday to Rosalind! =D ~Yu Tian~ Labels: mEmoRies
Saturday, July 28, 2007 22:31 Y
Post title : Fall down today! Hand hurts like hell... =/ damn suai today. it was raining, and the damn slipper was slippery... sort of fell down the stairs.. somewhere near Meridian JC... in fact, was in front of meridian jc... what the hell...
ok... hurt my hand and butt... but thanks to the amt of fats on my butt, my butt's doing fine now... but my hand hurts like hell... even after like 9 hours after falling down, it still hurts like hell...
Sought Adler’s and kian yan's advice as to what to do wid my hand when I reached home as I have never fell down since primary 5? Numbed my hand with ice to prevent it from swelling further and fell asleep halfway... then, mum helped me rub it with the Chinese medicated oil when she reach home. Cried like siao when she touched and rub my hand with pressure. A slight touch will hurt. So, imagine, applying pressure to it, how painful can it be.
realised adler called while i was sleeping... so called him back... he asked abt the condition of my hand and everything. gave me advice and everything. then, i forgot what else we talked abt... we ended the call when he was abt to go out for his dinner steamboat with his family... he said to call me back later...
oh... and well blogging abt this now... adler called... so coincidental again.. hahaz... all right, better stop blogging and concentrate talking to him on the phone, else he will be irritated. My sis wants to use to com anyway...
ok... bye!Labels: Ring Ring, What's happening today?
20:03 Y
Post title : Cherish the ones around you Juz read Arron's blog (Fahrenheit's member, yan ya lun), www.wretch.cc/blog/arronbubest. His recent blog entry is abt the sudden death of his 2 good friends cum basketball playmates. Felt like blogging abt the "death" topic after reading his latest entry where he wrote, "不要吝啬给身边的人爱，因为爱一个人很幸福，也很快乐。" Meaning, give and show all your love to the ones around you, b'coz being able to love one, is a kind of happiness.I understand what he's saying as i have been thru this before. However, I seemed to have forgotten to cherish the ones around me and show them i love them. I hate myself for this.When i was in secondary 2 (ard 14 yrs old), one of my good friend, Yee Chiat, passed away during the SARS 2 weeks holiday that we had. Was trembling when Edwin called and inform me abt this news. He did not passed away coz of SARS, but some terrible pain that he experienced in his head. I totally can't believe this news. Had to accept this fact after school reopened, when the principal came in and talked to us abt it, while our form teacher, Miss Sharifah was crying. My grandparents (father's side) passed away when i was young and thus, i didn't have any impression abt it, while for my mother's side, they are still living healthily now. So, this is the first death that took place around me. Seriously, I tried to hold back my tears when teacher and all were consoling my class and telling us what had happened to Yee Chiat. From what they said, the doctors don't seem to know what happened to him. It was said that he had been experiencing great pain in his head for days. None of us, his friends, knew abt this. And as i'm writing abt this now, my tears began to roll down my cheeks. I don't know why. Perhaps i have been keeping this in my heart and had been denying this fact for years. Now that i'm writing abt this here, the emotions start to come back again.Yee Chiat, i won't forget the times i spent with you. The times when we used to squabble with one another, with no meaning of harm, but fun. The times when we rushed our art work together in the classroom after our lessons had ended. The times we used to play together. The times when the whole class used to joke with your name as "one period". I wished that i could have cherished the times i spent with you. But i hope that you will get my message in heaven that I love you, my friend. I enjoyed the times when you are with us. I sincerely hope that your family are doing fine now. I believe your younger sister will continue to remember you and love you, a good brother of hers. forever and ever.You live in our hearts,Forever Friends,Forever classmates of 1E1 and 2E1,Sincerely, Yu Tian.Labels: mEmoRies
Friday, July 27, 2007 23:57 Y
Post title : phone conversation wid Adler Yeapx... Wanted to pick up my house phone to call kian yan initially at ard 9pm? but adler called my hp at tt very moment... hahaz.. told him this... his timing very accurate... hahaz! I talked to him then, since he called...yea... talked abt a lot of stuff... abt the "love" tt he found recently and abt him giving it up and the reasons behind it. He said he didn't reli like the gal after knowing her better. But aren't we supposed to know that we love someone only after we know abt them? yea... the love at first sight thingie simply means that we formed a good impression abt them and wanna know more abt them in order continue developing the relationship right? so, when he told me abt this "love", i don't think it's love at all, and thus, u see the open and close inverted commas with the love word here... hahaz! all right, told him tt his definition of love seems wrong in the last few calls we had last week, i think, can't rmb... but wadeva.. wow... but when he told me what the gal did and everything, like showing her interest in him, i was like, "wow! she's damn initiative and bold can... so obvious lahz!" hahaz... yea...yea... then we talked abt dates... then, i mentioned when going on dates, one should go dutch and everything, those tt i believed in... then, he was like totally agree... hahaz.. ok... then, he talked abt helmi's gf being a virgo also. then, he said tt he should get himself a virgo gf too... hahaz.. suggested priscilla to him! hahaz.. but he don't want... idiot...then, he said aries for him is not bad too.. yea... wad else... hmm... he mentioned abt this sex preferences, and i told him to shut up and tell this to his wife instead! hahaz! damn funny...ermz... talked abt our uncles oso... all of them are useless anyway... reli hate them... yupz... hang up the phone at 11pm when he was yawning...called kian yan later and asked him to call my hp... hahaz! ate crabs while talking to him! hahaz! the crabs are damn nice! ok... he interpretated the dreams for me.. (shall post abt this in as another entry) catched up wid him a bit and chatted... talked to him and he gave me some advice over some stuff... yea.. tt's abt all..ok... i'm gonna continue talking to kian yan... bye!Labels: Ring Ring
19:58 Y
Post title : BESE test BESE test was ok today, but i missed up some parts of the notes, thus, one of my answer to one of the question was like half wrong and half right. zzz Oh, and i muz say this... I fell asleep while studying for BESE in the morning. My notes kanna crumpled like crazy. sianz...
A very big thank you to Jing Wen also! hahaz.. If not for your New Delhi notes, i could have failed my test man... was tested on the dining ettiquette of New Delhi.
Then, went to A1 bubble tea shop and drank bubble tea with serene, sueh li, jing wen and qiu ping. I ate nuggets, nice! hehex... Jingwen ordered cheese hotdog while qiu ping ordered cheese fries. Shared the food.
Well, went home with jing wen and we gossipped again... =X hahaz!
Oh! and to Pris who's having a fever now, take good care of ur health k... drink more water...
dun stress too much after u recover ar...
yupz... tt's all for now. will call kian yan later to talk to him abt my dream abt adler.. hahaz! yea... i'm still thinking abt it now.. need to ask kian yan to interpret it for me... oh, the dream abt edwin needs interpretation too! hahaz! ok bye! I'm coming TEEEEEVVVVVVVEEEEEE!!!Labels: Ring Ring, What's happening today?
Thursday, July 26, 2007 19:55 Y
Post title : Abt SSM lesson and Jap test today Hi ppl! back today to blog abt SSM today... Eh... dun feel like studying for tomor's BESE test now coz very sleepy now.. so decided to blog abt what happened in class today..
Sianz... supposed to have practice for ssm today... but thanks to the ppl who are not present for lesson, i was allocated to be waitress for top table... under adler, the captain oso... station 3.. in charge of table 4, 5, 10b and 10c...
well, was quite blur in the beginning, made a mistake with the table number for the captain's order for table 5 (the chef's table, omg!), but luckily jeslyn found out earlier. So, the situation is saved! hahaz.. But she kept talking abt my mistake later, which i was thinking like can she stop it... It's my first mistake!!
Next, forgot to set the cutlery for the lady having japanese set meal after setting the cutlery for the rest of the guests seated at the same table. Well, i juz remembered that i forgot becoz i totally forgot abt the jap set which was written at the botttom of the captain's order and tt idiotic Miss Mark asked me to helped with the other station's table, etc... wadeva...
Miss Mark kept asking me to help the other stations' staff. She asked me not because i was free and had nothing to do, but was b'coz tt i stood like in the centre of the restaurant? anyway, let bygones be bygones... hahaz..
Ok... surprisingly, despite the mistakes and everything, i heard tt the chef and the other tables tt we were serving commented tt we provided good service and everything! waha! hmm.. went off halfway during debrief to attend cds tutorial... so, shall find out from adler later or tomor whether this piece of news is true ot not... hehex...
Oh! and was like kinda scolded by mr goh today... the coffee cup thingie lahz! i seriously know what he's talking abt, but i'm like what is he doing this for? my guests are like sitting opposite each other lehz... i know how to hold the cup! But i'm like damn slow in understanding what Mr goh was trying to talk about in the first place coz i was like, "hey, i know how to place it in front of the guests lorz! teaching me for what? teach wrong somemore... diff situation k..." And was like kanna scolded by him for not knowing the menu enough... hello!!! i'm pulled from practice into top table! be glad tt i already memorised the food items in the menu!
All right... Am satisfied at top table today...coz it's like not so messed up as last week's when i was the headwaitress... and i MUZ say, perlin is damn good can!!! she was the assistant head, but i feel that she stayed very calm and clearheaded throughout the whole operation. Impressed! =D
Okay... Next, Jap test... wa laoz... was damn tired after ssm can... feeling damn sleepy... den screw up my lsitening test lahz! shit... i'm so gonna get low marks!!! shit... pray hard tt i got tikkam the correct answers! hahaz!!
okie... tt's all for today... gotta continue study for tt idiotic bese test... yea! hope i won't fall asleep halfway thru... hahaz! god bless!
shall come back blog again tomor! =)Labels: What's happening today?
Tuesday, July 24, 2007 18:52 Y
Post title : Dreamt abt a guy-- ADLER "in my dream, i juz want to continue holdin tt hand n nv let go... yea... in my dreams..."
Wrote the above statement for my msn personal msg after the dream i had.
Hmm... had a dream again after waking up late (for accounting lec) and walked to mum's bed to continue sleeping..
dreamt abt me and a guy... whom i think is adler, but the feeling is not like is him though... appearance looked like him though...
Ok.. me and him sort of walked ard in this shoppin mall tt isn't reli crowded, but i muz say it's damn big... then, we were trapped inside it and can't seem to get out. the whole place was like a maze... and i think there are terrorists inside or sth and we were like trying to escape from them too..
I was like damn scared and started to reach out to his hand and hold it. i took the initiative... Know what's the best part? He still gripped my hand tighter, like not going to let go of it!!! weehe! damn shiok feeling... hahaz! ok, serious... there was reli a sense of security being with him, there holdin his big and warm hand. then later, somehow, we let go of our hands (i think i let go of his hands coz i saw sth interesting in a shop and wanted to take a closer look at it. seriously don't ask me why, coz i also dunno why i still have the mood to shop in the dream despite the tense situation created by the terrorists) and i was like quite shy to hold his hand again... However, i dreamt that he grab my hand again later and lead me to the way he's going! omg!!! damn happy in the dream can... though the situation in there was scary (like running away from ppl like tt)... being there with him juz ease my scares and tension away...
yea... and i hope tt i would forever be able to hold on to tt hand in my dreams... felt reli safe, secured and warm...
yupz... woke up and kept thinking abt it... can't erase this dream from my mind... will update more next few days! =) Labels: Twice upon a time?
Monday, July 23, 2007 23:57 Y
Post title : Adler woke me up! Yea... Adler woke me up from my sleep... i fell asleep like 8plus in the night? After exchanging arguement with my mum over my physics textbook... can't find it anywhere... and it's my bad habit to scream and feel moody over it... tt's why i fell asleep... totoally sadded...
den adler msged me like 11 plus in the night, "call my hp"?. what the hell. adler poh... i'm ur maid issit... msg me so late and wanna me call ur hp ar huh... ok... wadeva... still called him though... den he was like damn shocked when he realised he reli woke me up from my slp... hahaz! damn funny lahz, his voice.
ok... totally forgotten like what we talked abt... hahaz.. was damn sleepy then... only rmbed tt we talked abt the gay topic... those gays from mediacorp like bryan wong and chen han wei. Then, i said tay ping hui is damn hot (i like his body =X)... then, adler say, "u nv noe what... if his cock damn small how....?" DAMN SHIT! hello!!! where got ppl look there one! zzz...
hahaz.. ok tt's all for today... feeling damn sleepy again... wanna slp... bye!Labels: Bad habits, Ring Ring, What's happening today?
Saturday, July 21, 2007 21:44 Y
Post title : Terminal 3 Operational Readiness Testing Trip Went to terminal 3 today with the school. well, quite boring coz i don't really know what we are doing, But it was quite fun due to the friends present during the outing and everything.
Okay, the food provided is damn nice! =X
The rice is a bit spicy, like cooked with chilli sauce. Though i can't take spicy food, but i liked it and finished it up! The other ingredients, like chicken and tofu are nice too! yummy yummy!
took a lot of photos with the class also.
Ok. tt's all. hahaz! =)Labels: What's happening today?
Tuesday, July 17, 2007 21:18 Y
Post title : Stressful dream I dreamt abt edwin today... i think i'm too stress... over projects and tests that's all revolving around me now...
Eh, dreamt that me, kian yan, qiu ping and edwin was sitting at the coffeeshop... then, i went to join the queue at one of the shops to order food for them. then somehow, ppl who know edwin starting to surround me and pester me and shouting at me... they ask whether i'm edwin's gf... i was like shouting back, "i'm not his gf! we're only good friends! he's sitting there! if u don't believe, u can go check with him!"
wth... then i forgot what happened, I only remembered that i somehow screamed and woke up.
Think i'm damn stress nowadays... but why did edwin become the main lead of my dream anyway? why him among my other guy friends? hahaz...
ok... stop here for now... will tell jing wen they all abt this "interesting" dream.. hahz! bye!Labels: Twice upon a time?
Sunday, July 15, 2007 03:05 Y
Post title : Learnt how to upload songs today! wow... it's so late now and i haven't sleep yet.. omg... why???
hehex... tt's becoz i juz learnt how to upload songs into my computer! And juz learnt how to put upload songs into the mediabox for my friendster!
And so, i'm so excited that I uploaded a lot of songs! Thus, I have to wait for them to finish uploading which takes like hundred of years... zzz...
Hence, I decided to use this time to update my blog! hehex...yea! Going to learn more things on uploading songs soon! =)
Labels: Not so a com idiot anymore
Friday, July 06, 2007 23:28 Y
Post title : Time management has improved! =) Wow! Juz realised it's been ages since I last updated my blog...
Well, school has already started for 2 weeks and I’ve been VERY busy with projects and individual assignments. Projects are juz a pain in the neck. Seriously irritating when your group members don't cooperate or don't do their work. Well, if you're around me, I'm sure u have heard of my complaints. =/
Okay, but overall, I gain and I lose. Ever since this semester, I have become more responsible for my own work and am already kicking off my bad habit of being late. Most importantly, I improved on managing my time, which is a weak area that I always have since young. I'm very poor in time management, thus always find that I have little time to complete my work. And I always cannot manage to finish most of my tests in time.
Recently, I got myself a planner (or diary or whatever u call it) to help me plan my schedule! It's really useful as it will show u how much days or time u have to complete your work! I will definitely recommend using a planner to everyone I know who is having time management problem! Furthermore, I became more responsible for my own work after using it. Yeah!!! =)
okay, I think I shall stop here... kinda tired after all the projects...
Nitez! =DLabels: Improving
