Felt like blogging abt the "death" topic after reading his latest entry where he wrote, "不要吝啬给身边的人爱，因为爱一个人很幸福，也很快乐。" Meaning, give and show all your love to the ones around you, b'coz being able to love one, is a kind of happiness.
I understand what he's saying as i have been thru this before. However, I seemed to have forgotten to cherish the ones around me and show them i love them. I hate myself for this.
When i was in secondary 2 (ard 14 yrs old), one of my good friend, Yee Chiat, passed away during the SARS 2 weeks holiday that we had. Was trembling when Edwin called and inform me abt this news. He did not passed away coz of SARS, but some terrible pain that he experienced in his head. I totally can't believe this news.
Had to accept this fact after school reopened, when the principal came in and talked to us abt it, while our form teacher, Miss Sharifah was crying. My grandparents (father's side) passed away when i was young and thus, i didn't have any impression abt it, while for my mother's side, they are still living healthily now. So, this is the first death that took place around me.
Seriously, I tried to hold back my tears when teacher and all were consoling my class and telling us what had happened to Yee Chiat. From what they said, the doctors don't seem to know what happened to him. It was said that he had been experiencing great pain in his head for days. None of us, his friends, knew abt this. And as i'm writing abt this now, my tears began to roll down my cheeks. I don't know why. Perhaps i have been keeping this in my heart and had been denying this fact for years. Now that i'm writing abt this here, the emotions start to come back again.
Yee Chiat, i won't forget the times i spent with you. The times when we used to squabble with one another, with no meaning of harm, but fun. The times when we rushed our art work together in the classroom after our lessons had ended. The times we used to play together. The times when the whole class used to joke with your name as "one period".
I wished that i could have cherished the times i spent with you. But i hope that you will get my message in heaven that I love you, my friend. I enjoyed the times when you are with us.
I sincerely hope that your family are doing fine now. I believe your younger sister will continue to remember you and love you, a good brother of hers. forever and ever.
You live in our hearts,
Forever Friends,
Forever classmates of 1E1 and 2E1,
Sincerely, Yu Tian.
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